Catsday.

Chibi Update : 

I wanna say Tacos sound REALLY good right now. 

This whole only having one day off is finally taking a toll on me. I wish i had one more day off to just sit there and do nothing. But then ..id lose hours...excuse me its just a bunch of meaningless whining. 

As for exciting events this week,i went to my first Touche Amore show this past Thursday & i gotta tell you....i had no idea people still hardcore danced. Their crowd was no joke,being all up in the front with bodies flying everywhere,everyone elbow to elbow & shouting along had me reminiscing about being at an AFI show. 

I turned to my friend Eddie who was a few people behind me making sure he was aliiiive there he was drenched in sweat, singing a long & crying...just kidding not crying.He looked real static & content to be there. I will never underestimate a band ever again! Their set was flawless & full of energy. 

Its Saturday &...its broke week so here we. are....you know youre broke when youre having Pringles & Strawberry beer for breakfast but its okay cause youre in such great company 💚

Last night i had pizza from this place called The Pizza Press its near the Target by La Brea. Also my friend & i went to Bevmo & Target in search for pumpkin beer for our creature from the black lagoon marathon...(in which he proceeded to do commentary & turned the film into a friggin comedy...dammit!) 

we only found this...Jamaican me pumpkin. It wasnt that great..it tastes really sour & i just? Wasnt into it but i talked myself into drinking most ...it was $17 bucks...yep. 

I am happy to see that Total wine is carrying my favorite...Shipyard...fuck yes!!! & psyched on trying the new one also by shipyard called Smashed pumpkin. 

I swear by this beer, last year i think i only had one or two. 

I've been better about sleep this past week,the last two-three weeks i was doing 10 hour shifts on 3 hours of sleep. Oh it was the worst. 

Showing off my Creech patch. ^_^ 💚 

Tis was a bad hair day. 

Today the swamp monster & i are taking a trip to the town of Derry & possibly going to see a Ramones tribute band after. 

Mandatory naps in between. 

Horror,punk rock & cofee plz. Stay tune for photos on my next post. 

Remember when you said "Everythings a mess"

At work.....brainstorming, drinking coffee and most importantly still feeling really sleepy.I fell asleep early yesterday but it seems my body is still on recovery mode.I'm sleepy and tired and I need more sleep, Hoping to get two hours of sleep before I have to get ready for tonights show. 

I find myself in a situation of ? I don't know what I want to do, I don't know if I want to stay I'm being very vague about it.But you know when you get that gut feeling in your tummy? and it hurts because you sense something negative? well that's where i'm at. I don't know what to believe, I don't know if I want to continue or I want to just run from it.It seems the easier option would be to just let it be and leave it behind. It sounds like the cowards way out right? 

I don't know if seeing friends getting married and having kids,couples moving in with each other, reminds me of how the years are passing by. 

Then i talk to myself and i convince myself that life isn't a competition, that things will slowly fall into place when I'm ready. I can't picture myself having kids or the marriage the whole cookie cutter story just isn't me i feel like i have to work extra hard for everything that i want to accomplish and set out to the universe.I'm the one thats slowly pulling myself back, i'm my own enemy, i talk to myself out of doing things that aren't in my comfort zone. I guess we are all going through it in some way or another. 

Why does it always get dark? just when i think things are slowly getting better? 

why when its too good to be true it is? 

why even bother? 

I'm tired of coming across dishonest people. 

With that being said the last 5 months of this year are about me and me being good to myself. 

Eliminating the negative and then i'll go from there. 

Greetings.

.....I am typing this while i'm at work for an 8 hour shift on a Sunday, ( i got the itch to write a short blog) I'm on 2 maybe 3 hours of sleep. I have the Beth Ditto station blasting through the speaker & the newest interview with Laura Jane Grace in the background while i wait for mah coffees! Yesterday was quite the adventure, my friend the Swamp Monsta & I had the privilege of recording the set of Teenage Goo Goo Muck at the american legion in Bell Gardens (by the way they are a CRAMPS cover band) if you haven't check them out they are really great live ! also they play very often & the peeps are super kind. That was fun, i had never recorded with an actual camera before. I really hope they like the footage we tried to move around as much as we could getting glimpses of each member and the audience dancing. Grim the singer hooked us up with free t shirts after the show ^_^
                              Let me rewind a little bit, before arriving to the show we went for some last minute Halloween hunting at Marshalls, we killed two birds with one stone dinner & looking for spooky goodies.I walked outta there with the most adorable mummy mug, kitties in Halloween costumes tumblr, a candy corn bow tie for my Mcmittens ^_^ (Halloween photo shoots will commence next month) & the most perfect Halloween Snoopy blanket, its grey and it has Snoopys in a mummy costume and a skeleton costume.We both got one because? Peanuts...& why the fuck nawt? couldn't pass up this deal...

We tried to go to Applebee's that didn't work out they had a long line so we ended up at this noodle place where the food was delicious, & he was showing me Youtube videos while we ate in the car.We ended up at rite aid after cause we had to buy booze for tomorrow which is today & we came upon the most marvelous delicious alcohol discovery...ya guise ready for this?!?...my liver is still trying to process how smooth that whiskey was ...its called Skrewball it has a sheep logo in the front followed by the words (PEANUT BUTTER WHISKEY)  "Tomorrows stories begin right here". I am telling YOU..its delicious and dangerous so so smooth and it smells and tastes delicious. I can picture every writer owning a bottle of this while having those late nights of nonstop writing & working on the best story ever and hanging out with their 3 cats ... I am craving a night like that.

Another highlight of the night was meeting Swamps pin up model looking sister & her hilarious boyfriend! What great company they were ! I'm usually REALLY friggin awkward when meeting new people.It takes me a while i get a mix of anxiety,socially awkward but at the same time excited cause yay! new friends. His sister has this amazing ability to control an entire room of people i was left amazed by her presence and speechless at some of the interesting stories they shared with me.
So many stories before ya know it we found ourselves sitting at a NORMS eating breakfast food, at 3 am feeling like the night was never going to end.
Swamp drove them home & then we stumbled home, while StarCrawlers "Pet Sematary" played in the background.
Which leads to the next adventure today...at the Hollywood Forever Cemetery they are having the Johnny Ramone tribute & a screening of WARRIORS. I've always wanted to attend but i would either miss out when it was, too broke or simply didn't have anyone to go with.Without even thinking i hauled ass to purchase tickets and that's what i'm doing after work.


How is your Summer going?
Halloween blankets,books,naps, AC, picking up extra shifts,,Caramel Popcorn,booze,lots of iced coffee.going to the movies often is whats getting me through this not so depressing Summer.
I recently finished Tranny, and now i'm half way through The Lady from the Black Lagoon, i'm taking my time reading it because! i'm absorbing it & i'm enjoying learning about Milicent Patrick.
I also started Lydia Lunch's book its a super short read ! I recommend.
For now i'm putting together a Zine based on my Summer adventures..i gave myself a deadline and i'm going to have it out on the last day of Summer so stay tune for that. I'll most likely be giving out free copies. I'm doing this reading challenge i found on the reading glasses podcast, if you haven't give them a listen.It's hosted by Mallory O'meara author of the lady from the black lagoon & Brea Grant who's an actress she came out in HEROES & she's also a writer.Every week they do a new episode and they talk about at least 5-10 books.

Anyway..my coffee is finally here...gonna go start working now before i get a write up...